scared?

I have been feeling really odd lately. Weepy sometimes, but I cant actually cry. Im really not sure why. I kind of feel like something important is missing, but I dont know what it is. Maybe Im just scared about going to California, leaving everything behind, starting new things. I have been realizing lately how little time I have left to resolve things here. Maybe the uncertainty of the next year is whats killing me. Either way, the attempts that Ive been making to try to live more in the moment have been pretty feeble. What should I be focusing on? Will I have everything ready in time? Will I be happy when I get out there? Ive always had problems not overthinking things, or staying away from worrying about things. I just feel a bit at a loss and dont quite know what would be best for me right now. I guess it will just come to me if I remain open.